Hi it's been a long time since I have make a journal... I don't know why im writing this because no one will ever read this apart from little brother...

Could someone tell me why I have this pain in my chest,is it my heart...is it something else?
How can I purge this evil that I have inside me?
I feel sadness and loneliness inside of me everytime I think about a person...
You who have made this wound and left me here withouth heal...
You who have left this scar and now it's seems to rotten everytime I think about the reason that im this way...
You who sold me the world as a beatiful place,without worries,without fears...
Now im here lying in the corner of my room,seeing as the time passes by...
the only person that time forgot,that left alone and fled to converge many of the people our there
Why Do i think of you as an enemy,Why do you think of me as a friend?
Why do you stab me in the back as a cold-blood murderer...
Do I have any saying on this,apart from writing this sorry excuse of a letter that I made every night but I can never deliver.
Hiding from place to place,disguising myself as something that im not,so that way you wouldn't feel bad about yourself?
Always thinking if the saying " One man can make the difference",Will ever be true?
Ha,always wondering... what's wrong with the world... or some would rather say,"What's wrong with you?
Never the less to say ...it's not your fault,it's my fault for hiding of everything That i had become
Nothing more than a wonderer in this plane of the living and discontent souls...

Anything else i would have to say... I don't seem to care anymore,I lost the esense of life... and that person actually doesn't ever care or at least know... I hope that ____ would never pass through the same thing as me...
I desire my death but all i can get it's pain
I desire my death and all i can get life without you